Hope.

When to see a change is all

That is desired.

But when to see a change is all

That will take the most,

Break the most,

Hurt the most.

When to see a change is all

That will inspire.

But that change cannot be taught

By you alone.

Cannot be bought

By you alone.

Cannot be fought 

By you alone.

When to see a change is 

To see yourself.

When to see yourself is 

To break the mirror,

To shatter the soul.

When the cost of your soul is all

It takes to see a change.

But when the view is all

Devastation and confusion.

Wreckage strewn all

Across the shore.

Who can replace these tears?

Can any explain?

But I hope.

I do not wish.

I have a hope - not fanciful longings.

A real hope - not unfulfilled desires.

A true hope - not postmodern rhetoric.

A living hope  - not dead philosophies.

Hope.

I have hope.

Emotion.

What is this heart of mine?

The promised flesh,

Or the cold, hard, stone?

Do we have a problem 

When other people are fine

And it's myself I distrust?

When my mind can entertain all sides

Yet still maintain the record of deadly wrongs.

What am I killing - 

Is it really me,

Or just who I could have been?

Surely you are bigger than emotion,

Because at the moment

Emotion is bigger than me.